Position Statement
Greetings, my name is Marvin. Welcome to Impermanent Insanity Mobile. For many reasons I am embarking on a “Walk Across America”.
I hope to bring awareness to mental illness, particularly three of which I have – Major Depression, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Depersonalization Disorder, I would like to particularly bring more awareness to Depersonalization Disorder, a rare but devastating mental illness.
I also hope to bring inspiration to those who suffer from any mental illness. To show them that we are not defined by mental illness., that we are people first, and not our diagnosis. And as a whole person, we can do anything we set our minds to.
This walk is also about Full Disclosure. I have a companion website, Impermanent Insanity, in which I discuss very personal and private thoughts and experiences. Absurd things that have happened in my life, that could have been taken directly from a science fiction novel.
Some of you will think I'm either insane or have an overactive imagination, but to the few of you who see the connection, I tell you the truth for what it is worth.
This Walk is also about clearing my mind, losing weight (I am 60-70 lbs overweight), and interacting and experiencing life with others. It's about Honesty. It is also about regaining control of my life.
Sincerely
Marvin Kirkland
Friday, December 31, 2010
Day 6
Before leaving the from the car we met a man named Steve who inquired about the nature of our walk. We talked for a while, and when we started to leave he said "nice shoes". We had the same pair of hikers on. Is that cool or what?
On the way back to the car (only about 1.5 miles from it) we spoke with a nice lady named Anna Rude. Don't let the name fool you; she was the antithesis of rude. She was very nice to talk with. I gave her one of my home made cards, and she said she would spread the word about our walk. Thanks, Anna! It was a pleasure meeting you!
So, tomorrow the plan is to get through the city of Temecula. We will probably have to walk back to today's ending point and back to the car, here at McDonald's on the north end of town. They graciously are letting us sleep in their lot and letting us leave our car parked there tomorrow.
Why are we taking a whole day to get through one city? For one, getting through all the crosswalks will take more time. Two, we still will not probably get a ride from one side of the city to the other. If I had a bus schedule it might be different.
Justin did well on his first walk today. His feet are really sore, and of course my feet and ankles are very sore.
Overall, even though we only netted 7.3 miles, the day was a good one.
7.3 productive miles + 7.3 backtrack miles = 14.6 total miles today
Happy New Year!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Day 5 - Rest Day
Thanks go to Al,of LA fitness for letting us take a shower and shave, or at least, I shaved. Then we went to a laundromat to wash some clothes. We helped this lovely lady out to her car with three loads of laundry. We talked for a while and explained to her what we were doing, and she was so excited for us. She asked that we share a prayer together, so we held hands and she delivered an excellent prayer for a great and safe journey. Thank you, Natasha! It was a delight meeting you. Be well.
Tonight, we are staying at the 7-11 that I stayed at last night. In the morning, my brother and I begin our journey together.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Day 4 - Rest Day
I had two breakfast burritos at McDonalds then later went to walmart to get some mix activated cold compress. I'm not too impressed with them. I also got a warmer microfiber blanket, more Desiten, and paper towels and a few other small items. Then I went to the 99 cent store and bought $37 worth of food plus a can opener. I think we'll be set for a while.
My brother, Justin is arriving via Greyhound tomorrow mid-afternoon. I have to make room in my car for all of our stuff and still have room to recline in the seats to sleep.
I think the biggest obstacle in this endeavor is securing a ride from the place we slept at to the place we last walked to the day before. I don't want to "double-walk", but will if we have to.
I would like to share with you a list of books that I have with me that I have either started reading or will have read (hopefully) by the end of this trip. It depends if I can get my Ritalin refilled. Yes, I have ADD, also. California won't accept the paper script my doctor wrote for me in Pennsylvania. Perhaps in Arizona.
Anyway, the list -
Fiction:
- "Confessions of a Crap Artist" by Philip K Dick
- "Nausea" by Jean-Paul Sartre
Non-Fiction:
- "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor E Frankl
- "Being and Nothingness" by Jean-Paul Sartre (This thing is HUGE)
- "Teachings of the Buddha" edited by Jack Kornfield
- "Peace is Every Step" by Thic Nhat Hanh
- "The Vision of the Buddha" by Tom Lowenstein
- "Tormenting Thoughts and Secret Rituals" by Ian Osborn MD
And I have several magazines I'm reading: Popular Science, Writer's Digest, Analog - Science Fiction and Fact, Asimov's Science Fiction
This should keep me busy when not walking. I also want to read on breaks during the walk, when not engaged in conversation with Justin or anyone we may meet on the way.
I also have a Zen MP3 player with lecture material on several subjects.
I'm interested in doing a Bookclub if anyone would like to join. I'm almost finished with "Confessions of a Crap Artist" by Philip K Dick. The next one I'd like to read is Viktor Frankl's "Man's Search for Meaning". Perhaps we could begin with that one?
It was suggested that I call LA Fitness to see if I could shower there. I did call the nearest one and they said that would be OK. I'm waiting till tomorrow until Justin arrives here in Temecula CA. I'm sure after 2-3 days on a bus, he would like to refresh himself with a shower and shave also.
Not sure where I'm sleeping tonight. I'll camp out in a lot somewhere.
Oh, by the way, if anyone would be able to make a Banner that would fit on the back of my backpack, and business cards, I would be in your debt.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Day 3
Would you believe that I got so cold last night that I started my car and cranked up the heater. Then off to slumber land. I woke up not too long after that and luckily the fuel gauge hadn't moved much. I'll try not to do that again. I woke up around 7:30 and walked into the McDonalds I was parked at and had two breakfast burritos. Then I drove the google walking directions and decided to see if I could get permission to park my car at the Rainbow Volunteer Fire Department. They were eager to help out and said "of course". We talked for a bit, and I told them my main reasons for the walk. Their names are Eric and Ricky. Thx guys. Upon leaving I said thanks and Ricky said something I'll never forget. He said "Thank you" to me. That inspired me so much. You guys got my day going really great.
It took me about 1.25 miles of walking before I was able to hitch a ride back to yesterday's ending point. It couldn't have been a nicer couple. Thank you Bill and Mary Lou Goodson. We had good conversation and before I knew it we were at McDonalds.
It was a beautiful walk, with two long hills I had to climb. I came across a branch formation that looked as if a carcass of a cow or horse had been hung over a stump. You have to see it to believe it. When I reached the fire station the guys let me in to chat for a bit and to refill some water bottles then another guy took a pic of us.
Oh yeah, I think I'm starting a book club. lol! I read a little bit of Viktor Frankl's "Man's Search for Meaning". There were some quotes in the forward I'd like to share. It looks as if I'll have time tomorrow to blog about them. we have severe weather approaching. A winter storm, in Southern California! It's supposed to last from tonight and all day tomorrow. The following day looks promising, though.
I'm at Barnes and Noble typing this. Either today or tomorrow I may try to find a truck store where I can take a shower and shave.
I've been told the price is reasonable.
Thank you all for reading and I hope you continue to follow.
12.3 productive miles + 1.3 backtrack miles = 13.6 total miles today
Pic 1 - From left to right - Ricky, me, and Eric
Pic 2 - Tree system that looks like a carcass is draped over it
Pic 3 - I don't know this guy? No, just kidding, it's me
Monday, December 27, 2010
Day 2 - Rest Day
I also had to clean and organize so he'll have a place to sleep and store his belongings in my car.
His name is Justin. Just a little over 3 months we lost a dear Brother. It was Justin's identical twin. We are all close, but they lived together at times and were homeless together at times. They argued, fussed, and fought as only siblings can, but they were very close. It was a devastating blow to all of us. It's still unbelievable. Justin has been having an especially difficult time, and I hope he can get from this walk what I expect to get. Some catharsis, some mental, emotional, and spiritual cleansing. That process is unique to each of us, but I believe it could be good for him.
I'm here in my car at the McDonald's parking lot. They are letting me stay over in my car again. I really appreciate that. Thank you to the staff of Bonsall McDonald's.
This post is dedicated to Jason, who will forever be in our hearts and memories. We miss you Brother.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Day 1
13.5 productive miles + 1.5 backtrack miles = 15 miles total today
Rain, Mud, and Landslides, Oh My!
I decided to modify my route slightly. So now, instead of starting at Dana Point I will be starting this morning from Oceanside CA. I will head toward Banning, CA which is about 70 miles, and it is part of the original route I would be taking from Dana Point, so the majority of the route remains unchanged.
I got permission to sleep at a Chevron station last night. Thank you folks!
I'm eating breakfast burritos from McDonald's for breakfast now, while typing this. And will soon head to Walmart to get a few supplies and ankle braces, if they have them.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Venice Beach Boardwalk
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
New Plan
I have decided to follow the footsteps (at least in the beginning) of another Walker whose name is Jeff and goes by Walkingman2011. Please check out his website. I will be using it for reference and hopefully advice.
Oh yeah, the beginning point is a town south of LA called Dana Point.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Walk Across America - Day 1
I had purchased a rain suit from walmart the day before for 20$. The crotch split in just hours. U get what u pay for, I guess. My feet and ankles affected me the most. In fact, I'm taking two days off to recuperate. I will begin where I left off on Friday. I used a smaller walmart backpack since I wouldn't be taking o much at one time. The straps were difficult to manipulate and there was not enough torso length. Another piece of junk. Luckily, I brought my good backpack with me. I also bought a new pair of rain pants. Costed me 40$ but they are breathable tough. Hopefully they last a while.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
This is The Day
I'm excited to have finally reached this point in my endeavor. I will post as often as I can. Obviously, I cant post every detail, but I will try to hilite to most interesting and important situations.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Obligatory First Post
My plan was to actually begin walking on Saturday (today), however the weather is not cooperating. I know I will have to face these obstacles in the future and can not always delay my departure until conditions are perfect. However, instead of putting on my raincoat (which covers my backpack, too) I need to advertise my website in the Bay Area. I have a waterproof white pillow case which sports the phrase "Impermanent Insanity - Google me" written in a black sharpie. I am actually going to be staying at a hostel for a few days until the weather turns in my favor, which will be anywhere from Monday to Wednesday.
Thus far, my plan is to walk the Pacific Coastal Highway to LA.
If anyone knows any tips and tricks about life on the road, I am all ears. I want this to be a two-way communication. Me and You. Also a reason for me to begin posting, so I can begin receiving comments.
Stay tuned
Respectfully
Marvin